constructive criticism.

so today's the end of the 4th week for summer school.
2 more weeks to go! ;D then cheer camp :DDDDD
so in src, we watched this movie about Gay rights and stuff, and it was pretty good!
so that took up the whole period! next 2 weeks are DMV stufff so i just want to drive already. omg.
then in photoshop me and john finallyfinally took his me myself& i pictures, and the photshooot went niceee! today we didnt play boxhead cos we were all so very concentrated, except jeffery. ahaha. and i totally forgot to flatten my extra credit even though kasem told me to. Godammit!
so i tried printing it out at home, cos i got photshop on my computer but somehow its not working ;(

cheer today was an eyeopener. bigtime.
testing was boring, same as always. this time morgan was with us, and i lovelovelove it with shes testing with me cos shes so loud and it pushes me to do better.
and i love what anna writes, shes so swweeeeeet!(;
most of the time, we all just sat outside on steph's blanket and chillled, it was freakn hothothot!
my ass was freakn burning like theres no tmrw.
there was no jump challenges today, thankGod cos i was hella tired!

so for the rest of the 30 mins, we stunted and practised cheer.
my stunt group did their first doubletake AND I WAS SO PROUD! ;D
it was really slow and not as steady, but it's a good start!(;

then... we practised the cheers.
fuck im scared we are gonna look like shit at camp, cos thats pretty much how we look like now.
so as captain, me jess and parvine took turns watching the rest of them do the cheers and
i did not know how mych they needed help.
at first when gurvy told me i was shocked, but now i know thats cos me jess and parvine are in the front so we cant see hows the rest of them doing, and we thought it was good cos only we were doing good.

we didnt want to call them out, cos there was a only selected few that kept messing up and looked like they dont know shit, but it was hard for me, cos i really didnt want to embarrass them in front of everyone and now i feel gurvy's pain.

but we have concluded strongly that starting tmrw we are gonna start calling out people, and even though i dont want to seem like a mean bitch, i want us to look good, as a team.
and we;re not trying to embarrass them or anything, jus tto help them out so they dont futhermore embarrass themselves.
i reember last year when sarah was here, we didnt have any of these problems and we were so good.
but thats cos sarah was so intimidating and we were scared of her so we did whatever we were told.
this year everyones been too nice.

so after cheer, i waited with mel for the longest time of my life but we talked about deep things.
AHAHAH jkay, just boys! like always. ahahaha(;
so all in all, we need to fight for it if we really want it.
but i dont even know if i want it, or if its worth the risk.
no it's not worth the risk, i already concuded that.
and its so all of sudden too so what am i supposed to do. im doing nothing.
i thought there was something?or i hoped.
but good thing i kept my hopes low. cos it will hurt more after.
and games are fun. but not if youre the one being played.
it's only causal games right now, nothing serious.
just for the heck of it. but only if you were older....!!!

and my babygirlll expperienced her first broken heart. sortakinda. but hey, even rocks can be broken sometimes. so dont act tough cos your bff's can see through it! and we're always here for you!

after me and mel went to joghurt, and pigged out!
came home, napped for 3 hours like always.
meantime, my dad and sister ate dinner without me, so i just ate some salad. wasnt that hungry anyways and still trying to be on that diet. ahahah

and i know we cant have favorites or anything, but seriously shes the cutestestestest out of all of them!(;
and from their bunch, thats saying alot.

so i cant believe we have cheer practise 7AM-930AM tmrw, who does that? i need my sleeep!
and then i have ortho after, and then the cheer bonding party...

i hope all goes well.
i really cant wait for dad to be gone,
then i can actually have a summer life and go out and chill with friends.

idkay if we can go to the beach on saturday.
i kinda dont wana cos it would be weird only us 3nutters with all westco kidds, but then
i really need to meeet some new fishes out there in the sea. if you get my drift. ahaha
or maybe like i said, we need to re-look our old fishes, and re-examine them.
maybe we overlooked some parts.
mel i love you!(;