eve of new year eve.

cant believe one more day till 2009 is over. wowowowowow this year has gone by prettty quickly. i can still remeber the first days of 2009...
my parents tell me all the time to use my time wisely because time goes by really quickly, but i never really took that into consideration because i always thought a year is pretty long...but looking back, its gonna be 2010 already. ohmygoodnesss ;(
i tried to stick to 2009 new years resolutions but idk if i sticked to any of them for the whole year. prolly not ;/

regardless, here's my 2010 new year resolutions:
1. have goo time management skills
2. have self control
3. have confidence in myself.

i have alot more, but these 3 are the most importnat, rest is like common sense...

i think 2010 is gonna be a hard year, the begining is the rest of junior year, the hardest and most important, and then second part of the year is gonna be SATs and college apps. fuckfuckfuck.

i hope and pray that everything goes smoothly...


speaking of time management, i really need to start on bio. damn 8 chapters?! thats harsh/cruel/inhumane/ridonkulus/insane!!!!!!! ;( FOLFOLFOLFOL.

and im super scared for finals, PRAY FOR ME!!!!! trust, i neeed it.

welll lately, i finished let's go watch meteor garden, the main guy isfreaaakn hot(:
but the whole thing overalll was too dragggggy, wtf and the ending was such a big disspointment.
i get it, they want to make a cliffhanger for the sequel, but that waas tooo much!
i hate tragic memory losesss.. ;(

and autumn's concerto is freakn wonderful. i love it even tho its freakn ongoing...i hate waiting!
this movie's so touching, i cried like a baby.
maybe its just me, im too emotional, but whenever someone cries, i start tearing up.
if this doesnt end happily, i will kill someone. my eyes runing out of tears!!!!
&the litttle boy's adorable!! and vaness looks so much better than in meteor garden!!(:

i wish break was longer. i loveeee this break. dont want to go backkk to work! ;(

this new year, idk if anythings gonna be different, who knows, life's full of surprises. i guess i'll just go with the flow.

i cant believe im gonna graduate sooon. one more year to go. wow. knowing how short one year really is, scares me. i dont want to graduate, but i want to get out of here.
i really want to be independent, start my own life, meet new people and have new experiences. i wonder how we'lll all turn out. cant wait for the 10 year reunion!

on top of everything, im sick. :/ i rarely get sick, but my sister got me. damn
i hate being sick. i feeel so lazy and cant sleep cos my nose is so stufffy! ughhhh

okiedokes, bio time :(

&happy birthday dad(:

merrry christmas(:

I LOVE MY DAILY YAHOO HOROSCOPES! :D

Overview 12/25/09:
Don't let too many emotions muddle your holiday enjoyment -- just go with the flow. You've been spending so much time and energy on figuring out everyone else's problems that you may have neglected your own. You are about to realize you also have your needs and your pride. This may be the time to swing your ax or to let the chips fall where they may. Relationships come and go, but the real thing will stick around

driving lesson went okay today. 2 more hours to goooo!
i get all tensed up when my hands are on the wheeel, it bugs me how nervous i get.

got everything i wanted today(:$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
hehe shoppping time.
im dyingdyingdying for those booots! ugh!

it doesnt even feeel like christmas, my family dont really celebrate it cept for the presents and stufff. but its cooool, i like it better this way.

i lovelovelove it when i get new fresh texts in the morning.
today when i woke up i got like 30 merrry christmas texts! :D feeels good. ahaha

procrastinating again...
i neeed to start on bio hw ;( damn.

lakers vs. cavaliers.

christmas eve.

its freakn freeezinggg...

almost done withe english hw. i should really start on bio. fuckme.

just finished fated to love you today. SUPERCUTE(:
makes me jealous. theres no one out there thats acutally gonna be as perfect.
ethan's pretty cute, cept the small eyes. aha

THANKS ABRRRILLL<3 for giving me advice (; hehe now im not gonna be lonely with nothing to do.
i feel so behind...

im kinda hooked on dramas now, again. but im practising self control cos scool comes first...
but i swear, after ap testing. DRAMA-MARATHON!!!!!! ahhhhhhh :D

i want to watch silence and stained glass cos i never got to finish them but they are both hella sad, and my eyes are already small enough so they dont need to lose any more tears...and i hate crying and being sad :(

i hate it when i end a good drama, it makes me sad. ahah just like when i finish a good boook.
speaking of books, i havent read since like last year. damnn

but every time, they all teach me important lessons about life.

i've always believed in "everything happens for a reason"
i guess everything does happen for a reason, even if it does seem clear why, at first. But when i really think about it, about the desicions i made, the people i met, then things i did, they are all pretty connected. i just wish fate was kinder to me sometimes...

anywho,
it does not feel like christmass at all.
i already told my parents not to get me anything cos they never get what i really want. might as well go shopping myself.
plus, i've been pretty bad this year... shit.

i missss going to school, MINUS classes and hw and test. i misss friends and people ;(
im bored at home. but it feels so chilll, nothing to really do or worry about.
i wish break never ends...

"baby you my everything, you all i ever wanted, we can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it. "


so this school year;s half over, and im screwed.
i tried pretty hard, but im not gonna lie, i didnt try as hard as i should've/could've.

the only good class is apush, but its cos nelson's chill and class is easy.
wait till ap test...ohmyyyyy

im waiting for a fresh start. of everything!

sometimes, i wonder "what if...", more than i should.
and i feel retarded after cos it seems so silly and foolish to daydream of things that never could be.

let's go watch meteor shower.

eve of christmas eve.

do dreams mean anything?!
i just had the most strangest dream about the randomest guy of my life. ahah
but it was comfortable, and felt good in a way.

i wish my dreams came true ;(

its weird cos im doing hw at the beginnig of break, but i dont want to procrastinate anymore.

i lovelovelove this break. dont ever want to go back ;(

two hours of drving lesson done. im tired of driving. i think i want a driver for the rest of my life....

im hooked on fated to love you.
every drama always teaches me a life lesson.
what sucks is knowing that it will never happen in real life.

BREAAAK(;

darrren's party was ehhhhh. i was being bitchy cos i didnt take my nap :(
freakn me and jess and jay and max and darren set up right afte rhte min. day and prepared shitloads of foood. hehe MRS. CHOU IS SO ADORABALE(; i want to trade! ahah
then i took a nap with the girls, and then people came.
i learned lots of new stufff at the party, surprsie, surrrpise... ;O

saturday went shopping for mindy's present,
FINALY GOT JEAN TIGHTS! ;D

sunday, CHEER PARTY.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OHMYYYYYYYY OOOOCHILD(;
it was intenseeee. made my whole week prolly. AHAHAHHAHA

there was some kisssing, licking, sucking, blowjobing, dry humping, lapdancing, moaning, flashing goodies fun(:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
thank God D$ wasnt there....

this year im so happy with all the gifts i gave out, everyone seemed to like 'em so far(;
love that feeling of giving and seeing that expression on their faces<3

after, me and myindy and dkay went to westco mall and i got the tight black skirt i wanted!(;
now im saving up money to buy those gray boots!

today didnt do mucn, studied apush, tried to study bio,
CLEANED UP MY ROOM.
slept ayyoootttt.

my dad think he's funny. HAHA.

first driving lesson tmrw!
DENTIST TMRW. OMFG
BRACES OFFFOFFFOFFF PWEEEEAAASSSEEEE!

goals for break:
BIOBIOBIOBIOBIOBIOBIOBIOBIO
APUSPAPUSHAPUSH
spanish
ENGLISH HW.
watch dramas(;
LOSEE WEIGHT!
GET THOSE BOOTS
drivedrivedrive.

i hate

i hate the cold ;(
i hate thursdays.


i hate stupid people.