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www.formspring.me/irisjiang

THANKS SHANNON FOR #1breakfast #2making me a formspring! :D

so i got a formspring cos it seems everyone has one and i jsut want to see whats the biggie.
hah, i reember long back ago, when i was on XANGA, then everyone swtiched to myspace and i was reluctant in creating one because i knew that there would be other sites that will be more popular, and what do you know, no one barely uses myspace now, its all about facebook. hahaha so i was right, just took a little longer to carry out.

i think im gonna run everyday now. it felt pretty good today. but its so lame how tired i get after like 15 mins. wtf wow, how pathetic. :(

so this new drama im watching, hi, my sweetheart is the cutest thing ever. ohmyyy, he's adorable(:
horse, go away. ahaha

dad's gone for couple weeks. yay?!?

so winterformal's coming up, idk if im excitedexcitedexcited. it all happened so fast.
its really not that big of a deal and i really like my dress(: hehe, i cant help if its a little slutty, i really like it!

i think people should know that i rarely get mad or express my negative feelings, but when i do, im serious and i get pretty out of control. so lets not go there...ahah
but i dont want people to think that im just a carefree cheerleader that laughs at everything and never take anything seriously.
no thats def. not me.

i still havent wathced avatar. i cant believe its like passing records of titanic, wtf titanic is like a all time classsic. i dont beleive avatar's that good.

i really want to watch VALENTINES DAY & DEAR JOHN<33333333

i have shitloads of hw tonight, yayme....

busy weekend

GOT MY WF DRESS TODAY! :D
love it! hehe, its short, black with purrrple, my favorite!(;

so saturday i went to downtown again! with my dad adn it was gooooooooood. cos hes my $$$$bank :D haha FINALLY GOT THE COAT i wanted! yay! and new dress, and purse/clutch.
SO CHEAP. totally going again. now my fav. shopping place!

then went to mall adn saw the dress i wanted but didnt have time to get it.
then went to tutor...
4wated with mel,, steph, and johs, then mel steph and mindy on the whole paartybus situation.
we all tried calling companies, but everythings either booked for feb. 6, ot hellahella expensive!
i thought 2 weeks in advance was early! but guesss i was wrong. so wrong.

today, the whole morning ive been calling companies...good experience, imrpoved my speaking skills. on the phone. ahaha

it was a complicated afternoon, when steph reserved a bus, people started flaking...how annoying.

but now i guesss we are just gonna drive there and mel and steph and mindy got another buss. looks really nice! good for them.

but i think i did a good deed today, made a good decision, out of everything. hope it counts on my record and ec points! hehehahahohoho(;

AUTUMN'S CONCERTO'S ON RIGHT NOW! :D SOSOSOSOSOOO GOOOOD. LOVEEEEEEEEEE HIMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!

AND HAM, YOURE SO FUNNY. AHAHA

second semester

I FUCKN HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE THE RAIN! >;(
its so cold, and wet, and cold and dark, and makes my day all moody ;(
such a hassle with the umbrellas and puddles.
its good weather to cuddle at home with friends, hot chocolate and movies, but nooooo, we have school... :(

i wish we had 4day weekends every week :(
frst week of second smester was knda stressful, i wasnt used to like hw everyday, fuuudgeeeee.

now im bacl to my normal scheldulde, napping everyday after school for couple hours. maybe i dont need it cos after i dont really feeled refreshed, but maybe its a mental thing.

same old, same old in bio & math.
apush has just gotten even more boring. omfgggggg!

we switched seats in spanish :( but im next to chris now!(: hehe, thanks nativo!!! :D and sorry for my OCD! hah

pualine siwthced to kim's class! yay, now i have someone next to me! and that girl....omfg killl her.

cheer's been okay, yay for our lib!! and i feel like i should reconnect with cheersister :(

mel got asked today!(; aww the flowers were so pretty!

i. cant. believe. i. lost. my. $. today. :((((( its karma and bad luck...damn

overall, im excited for wf, dress shopping ! :DDD yay, im in craving of new dress and new shoes!!! hehe
i really hope it will be fun, all of us in a party bus together, time to get down&dirty, bahahah! jkay.
i hope nothing goes wrong! (knock on wood)
right now, we just need alotta couples on our bus and try to get the lowest price possible!
if you dont feel comfortable with a bunch of cheerleaders, dont come, we dont need you!

and i got annoyed today in apush, when they were saying how nogales cheerleaders were better than us.
BITCH PLEASE, they are so ghetto and rude, if you like them better, then i wish you transfer to nogales cos we dont want you.
at least we are classsy and clean,(on the outside) haha

im excited to buy a new dress, i want something fitt, short and cute(:
i have two weeks to get in shape! hah

ohmygoodnesss, hes cute(:


i hate how i lose everyhting. ohmy. so tragic.

P.S. GOD BLESSS THE HAITIANS! D:


NO TORNADO PLEASE!
RAIN RAIN GO AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

4 day weekend

so the finals have come and went...
i have many regrets, but i can't really do anything except try harder for second semester.

this 4day weekend has been really, really, reallly good. i dont know how else to put it, but hanging out with my bestfriends, worrryfreee, no homework, is what i needed the most, and what i missed the most.

thursday-boiling crab in alhambra with friends was a wonderful experience :D
then friday I RAN IN THE MORNING TO THE VILLAGE COS I PINKY PROMISED JESS! WHAT A FREAKN WORKOUT.
it felt good after, but i hated it cos there were werid people and mexcians staing and whistling at me.....
then afternoon was the westco game WE WON :D saw hammmy!(:

and movie night after with my loves JIMM was splendid; my sister's keeper is such a sad movie :/
saturday-7am downtown shopping! i was gonna die in the car cos im SO NOT A MORNING PERSON, but omfg it was SO WORTH IT!!!!! we are saving up and going there EARLIER AGAIN!!!!
after shopping, me and mel went to my house and chilled and then went to village to meet up with FBLA.
howard's so organized....BUT THANKS FOR THE ROBEKS! :D
then went to service in diamond bar, motherfuckers.
but i got lucky! hehe

friday and today was chill day, i think i slept back all my lost hours! yayy.

i hate to find out we have a 6chapter bio test on wednesday with study guuide due WTFWTFWTFWTFWTF????!!!!?!!!!???!!?!?!?!

winterformals coming up...i want to go, but theres no potentials! :( this always happens to me. ohmy.

i think im pretty content with my life right now. my hairs growing, thanks to horse shampoo (:
but im hating the rain, the bio, and school tmrw :/

just like how i couldnt find anything that was amazing to me at downtown, i feel like there is sitll something misssing from my life and i still havent found that missing piece yet. i dont know what it is, but i know its out there.

im sorry for disspointing you :(
it seems everyone has a formspring, i want to try it out! but we'll see.

hello second semester...

finals weekend :(

finals are coming closer and closer. i can almost taste my death...ahah

so i have a plan in mind, but its not really in action right now...fuck.
need to start asap.
so starting next week, or reallyreally sooon, im gonna abandon all internet entertainment distractions such as facebook to focus! i really neeed a decent stable grade. i cant even count on the AP test in may because you never know whats gonna happen...

and im pathetically happy right now...hehe he's single(: i think.

i cant wait for 4DAY WEEKEND after finals, shoppingbonding time with Jim(:<3

then me and mel really need to start doing some work...ha ha ha

and after finals, im determined to lose weight! need to start working out again.

thankGod dad called, i was getting worried :/

kay, study timmeeeeeeeeee :(

tuesday night

im tired.

3 hour 3-way convo with Jim(: hehe

time to finish up hw.

and maybe study?

im excited for the "plans" next weekeend, if i even survive to those days...

JAEBEOM & TAEYANG = YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

i'd do anything for/to them(; hehehehe...

break's too short

first day back from break....
so tiring in my classes :(
and tmrw's block. i hate block. fuck block.

i cant believe we have apush test already not that i study much anyways. but still, the mental stress. ahaah.

im just happy people noticed my brace free teeth(:
ahaha jazzyln's so cute.

CREST CLEAR WHITESTRIPS! THEY ARE WORKING! :DDDDD
hello pearl whites, hehe(:

its good seeing everyone again, but i hate the usuall loads of hw and upcoming test& finals >:(

so right afterschool, i was so tired, took like 4 hours of nap. felt so bomb(:
and procrastinated hw untill now. fuuuuudge i should really really reallly get rid of this bad habit.

i love english discussions. i love english when we dont have to write, and only have open discussions. :D
mr. kim's a werid one. ha ha ha
and cheer was fuckn pointless/waste of time.

so i have good news and bad news.
good news: 4 DAY WEEKEND MOTHERFUCKERPIECEOFSHITHELLYEAH :D
bad news: thats only after the 2 grueling days of finals next week... :/

and it kinda irritated me today after reading this one article about how this mexican immigrant has worked hard to earn full scholarship to harvard.
yeah it was touching and motivating how he worked so hard, educated with IB diploma and worked sidejobs to help his family, but still, maybe im shallow and selfish, but it seems still unfair to me because i think that if an asian kid with same situation and circumstances as that kid and applied for harvard, they would not have gotten in with the full ride. maybe. yeah he finished IB and graduated top of his class, but look at his school, its some ghetto school with other mexicnas no offense, but if some of us went to that school with the drive that we have now, we would be top dog too. its jsut sucks having to go to such a good high school such as walnut because we are comparing oursleves with other nerdy asians and our chances are so slim, unlike kids in nogales for example. and our ethnicity. it sucks. its not my fault im asian. it seems that other ethnicities such as mexicans can work with like half of my drive and motviation and hard work and can still get in a better college than me.
i dont care if others think my comment is prejudice or overanalyzing or just complaining about life. but it just seems to me that this is what's really going on these days....


studytime.

2010;last day of break :(

YAY ME; BRACE FREEEEEEEE! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

FINALLY. OMFG. about time, 5 years, shiiiiiit.
now im waiting to get them whitened(:

I CANT BELIEVE SCHOOOLS TMRW. OMFG :(

this is prolly the FIRST time ever i hate going back to school sososososoossoososoooo much.
idk, its like i have this monster inside of me, protesting against the end of break ;(

i really dont want to go back, go back to all the shitloads of insane work, tests and all the stressss from everything. i cant describe it, but its just so stresssful worrrying about grades. they determine our futures, just a couple of numbers and letters....

im really starting to doubt everything, if all these shit im puttting myself through is really worth it.
yeah, everyone's goal is a good college, but is it really worth putting myself through this amount of stress and uncomfort ? what if the world really does end in 2012, then i would have wasted my life....
and also, what's really the point of taking all these AP and advanced classes, are they really going to matter to me in life?! they are all jsut for college references, but what if i dont get into a decent college? (KNOCK ON WOOD) then my years of highschool would be totall wasted. fuck. then what am i going to do?


and idk how im gonna survive the school times, my sleep patterns have been so jacked up. i've beeen sleeping at like 3/4 ish and waking up supersupersuper late. ;/

fuck. and i didnt stduy for finals like i planned ;(((((((((

gooodbye break; hello stresss :(