this is the first weekend in a long time where i barely have any hw, feeels hella good(:

i got reallyreally sick on staurday cos of the game friday. it was ridiculous. first hte coldcoldcold weather, then these fuckn chino hills crowd were nothing but white trash. rude and prejudice and ignorant. these bitches can go suck it.

we didnt win, so bballs officially over...kinda sad but cant wait till next year.

so at the game, i spotted a super hot guy, and guess who it was...haha it WOULD be his brother. daYUMMM(:

AUTUMN'S CONCERTO TOTALLY MADE MY DAY TODAY-THE FACT THAT THERES GONNA BE ANOTHER EP! :D OMGOODNESS.
its honestly the best show i've seen in a longlonglong time. its so real and vaness is fuckn hot. like the way he always raise his eyebrows, his body,the way he talks, mmmmmmmm.
maybe im just a drama-addict, but this show teaches so many life lessons. i know its so overrated but todays ep taught me that you cant always jsut sit and wait for that person, if you want love and happiness, you have to go and fight for it, fight for the person you love and fight for your own happiness.

i wish i had that courage and charisma to jsut go up to that person and talk to him. but idk, its never the right time. i guess its just highschool...


i've also realized how deep a mother's love is. i literally cried like half the episode :(



i hate it when i catch myself being so hypocritical. i hate it when i text someone and they never text me back. yet i did the same thing today. on purpose. i hate it when i call someone and they dont answer or call back. yet i did the same thing last night. even if it was at 1am. they would call me every weekend...haha


so i realized, i havent been going out alot lately. thanks jeremy for making me realize how boring i am. but i guess its my choice and honestly, im really just so lazy, i enjoy staying at home, doing nothing but watch movies, eat, and sleep.and i love it when im home alone,its so chill and i like being by myself cos i dont have to impress or look good for anyone or be on guard. i can do whatever i want.

even my moms said i've gained weight...time to workout!!!!!!!


march is coming soon, fuck that means tryouts, and AP. and not long till graduation and byebye seniors :(
im really going to miss all the seniors, i cant imagine being the top dog next year, being the oldest...:/

i reallyreally want next year to be the best. but thats what everyone says and wants. since D$ gonne be gone after 13 years, i really dont know what to expect, its either going to be really good, or really bad. i honestly dont care much if i get captain but i jusst hope that whoever gets it, will be stern with leader like qualities. it going to be hard because we are all bestfriends on the team, but during cheer i think we would need to put personal relationships aside and work together because we are all interdepent on each other.
banquet in two weeks, means tryouts are sooonsooonsooon. fuck CROSSS MY FINGERS AND KNOCK ON WOOD.

there's alot of things i want to do and alot of people i cant to get to know but it seems theres never enough time and fate doesnt allow it.
but then again, im being hypocritical because i think people should go and fight for what they want beucase its only comes around once and if you dont hold on tight, it may never come back.

i guess this is what happens when im locked in my house all weekend long, i tend to think alot and over analyze things.

i really dont want any distractions now, esp now because my mind cant afford it,but then my heart wants something different.

one in a million

your love is one in a million,
it goes on and on and on y
ou give me a really good feeling,
all day long...

your smile, your style is so fly, i cant deny
i got a crush on you and that is true indeed
and im diggn you,
youre making me believe that

your love is one in a millionn...

so this weekend was supersuper chill.
i loved it. 3day weekend!
i love costco and everything it sales!
watched leapyear SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE :D,
the british accent with manly beard TURNS ME ON!! mmmmmm...

then some creep just keeps calling me at nights at like 1am during their manly sleepovers and it turns out to be howard and jeremy and jared. THANKS GUYS!!!!


i didnt accomplish as much as i wanted to during the weekend. but it was chill, gained back lotsa sleeep. i thought i got pink eye but i didnt.

got reallyreally sick tho :(

im diggn this summer weather!

block went by pretty fast today, fastest its ever been actually.

me and avery (&sara?) SET THE CURVE FOR BIO TEST! :D never got the highest before in bio! :O except that one quiz. haha YAYAYAY!

then in apush, we faced reality when he talked to us about how close may is and HOW FUCKN SCREWED WE ALL ARE... ;/
seriously, i want him to actually give us points for the workssheeets and IDS so i would acutally do them and learn something! so fucked...
and i can not beleive this is the 6th weeek. damnnn :(

so um..it kinda pathetic but my hopes were kinda crushed. ahah but its okay i guesss, im jsut waiting for some other time thats right for me. help me out God!

so went to el pollo locos, bought some stuff that i had no idea what it was with avery and jacquie, went to daniel's house. worked on mortality rates, screwed around, laughed alot, got high (jacquie...HAHA)
and here i am... this is a busy week for me, yet im on the computer, why why why.


some people needs to open their eyes...and stop.



bio&apush time.

valentines day/chinese new year

happpy chinese new year!
happy valentines day!
happy single awareness day!

woke up really late today. last night watched the annual chinese new year show with the family. its really one of the things i look forward to on chinese new years, besides the $$ and food(:
went to costco, bought snacks and pizza! :D
my day wasnt so exciting but its chill and i like it this way.
although i still have bio and hw always in the back of my head, like heavy weights on my shoulder :(

i hate whenever my paretns talk to me about my future and SAT and grades and collgeges. they are so annoying nad just dont get it. omfg, i thought about my plans and i know what i need to do so just back offf! geeeez. they swear like im going to end up mowing lawns for the rest of my life...fuckers.
and i hate it when they compare me with other people. just stfu.

ironically, their annoyingass lectures gives me more motivation to go to a good and far college and get the fuck out of the house...

thankGod for 3day weekend. i needed this!!!

damn, february is almost half over. ohhmyyyy times goes fast. i cant believe we are going to be seniors next year, it all seems so far away.

today i think i realized something, i really need to stop wasting time and creating scenarios in my head that will never happen in reality and the more i do, the more i curse myself and the chance of the event actually occuring :/dammit

i hate how im sick and this weird weather and bio hw and how i look like crap and not exercising and pathetic workouts and meaningless days wasted by doing aboslutly nothing and shitloads of homework and stress from classes and pointless days jsut passing by.

my mom is too passive, she promised my sister a iphone for her 12th bday. WTF even i dont have one, why does she get one. wtf mom are you out of your mind. i swear, sometimes i jsut want to....UGH

today is a sad and disspointing day b/cos...autumn's concerto isnt on! :( dammmit!!!!!!!!

so me and mel dont have a valentine today, or ever..ahah how sad :( but i really think the problem is us, not them. we are too picky and have high expectattions blocking out other potentials.
mel, open your heart! ahahahahahhaahahaaa

i wish something good happens sprawns out of all these nonchalant days.

new goal!

so im sick and this fuckn rainy weather's so annoying >:(
thaks God for last week of bball season, im so sick and tired of wasting my time afterschool for shit.
i was kinda ready for taking bio test today since i was "sick" monday morning, but nooo now i have to take it thursday. great and freakn labs due friday. FUCK
i feel like i dont have alotta hw, but i shouldnt really wait till alst minute to do stuff...

i really hate bloc, the classes are so long and unbearable, esp when im sick, i feel like a zombie. i dont even try to look decent anymore, fuck that. ahah

damn, i wish i was a prettty white girl :(

so me and ave talked and we've set a goal for both of us, and deadlines prommmmmyourmom!!! i think my chance are so much far offf than her's but i guess its a challenge and im curious to see what fate has in store for me and how much do i realllyreally want it. and i really do want it.
so i guess this will be a first, first for me to go for it, first for me to make a move, first for me to...we'll seeee i guesss.

im still in a really annoying mood these days, idk why some things and some people just bugs me, gtfo of my face pleasee.

so i think, if anything, the one lesson i learned from wf is to not wear a shortshortshort dresss cos then i'll be reluctant to show the pics to my parents and other people will call me unlady-like names and i feel uncomfortable in the dress anyways...but...but it was pretty! AHAHAHAH

i want to base some more with fee and flying sam, it felt gurrrrrrrrrrate! cept now im kinda sore.

so today in kim, pauline's "nerd crush" is so cuteee. ahahahahaahah i think we all need a nerdy crush, so adorable!

sadie's coming up, got no one in mind, but i dont want another replay of last year, so i better get on thaaaaat. hmmm...

okay i should stop proccrastinating. math test tmrw great 2hrs of gaynesss of kevin and shawn. ahahhahaha

winterformal '10

winterformal seemed so far away, but it was yesterday and now it has passed.
the day was chill cos i cancled all my tutor and was kind of carefreee, althouggh the bio test tmrw was always in the back of my mind :(
overall the night was okaaaaaaaaay, didnt expect much.
i was excited to go to jess house with the girls and get ready, i think that got to be the highlight of my day. too bad jess couldnt go :*(
mel and mindy all looked extra prettty(:
after we sepeerated to go take pictures and i saw alotta people at the westco place, which has like pornstar pictures all over....ahaha
after pictures we went to cocnut bay, YUM PAD SEE EW(:
then cue was really fun! the pictures turned out good! better than my actual pcitures i think. ahaha
after we went our seperate ways. me and max went to ale's to pick her steven and cammi up. dropped by at chris's. saw a damn black cat :O
it was reallly colllld outside when we were waiting in line to get into minx. the dance floor was so cramped and tiny compared to the mass of the people.
the food was bombbbb! SWEEET POTATO FIRES! ;D reminded me of boiling crab again. ahaha
we took cheer pictures, caricature drawings, the lady sucked :(
i thought the dance ended at 11:30, but it ended at 11 and the line to get out was super long. this crazyass chick just cutted everyone and i was so annoyed.

i admit, last night i was being a total bitch. i was in the most annoying bitchiest mood everrrrr. partially was cos i was really tired, idk why. sorry to those who had to go through it. but just a number of things, stupid people and occureneces really annoyed me. i wanted to nap in thee car but couldnt, and felt kinda left out and lonely cos i didnt have anyone close with me to talk to.
and yesterday was just a unlucky day for a couple people, but shit happens, and i believe its all karma, teaching people a lesson. yeah it sucks to happen on winterformal and affecting the people you care about, but how else are you going to learn? i know i sound so bitchy cos it didnt happen to me, but from a outsider's point of view, thats how i feel. to be honest, i can't really be the one to judge because we've all done those kind of stuff, but really, on a important day to risk so much and to be so late and unprepared i say the punishment fits the crime.
&i def. learned my lesson tooo.

i think im gonna be sick tmrw morning, first period only...hah hah.
i've been donig really bad in apush, and i jknow why :(

oh recap of nogales game friday-INTENSEEEE! WE WON OVERTIME!!!
since me jess and par werent in uniform we could shout mean stufff and at first we didnt, but those annoyingasss ghetooo nogales cheerleaders pisssed me off so bad. they are so fuckn rude...but its okay, we yelled back whenever they tried for a freethrow and at the end we finally won. so SUCK IT nogales!
and im in love with taco bells' 89ccent burritos! ahhhhh heavenly....(:

i cant beleives tmrw's already school and last weeek of bball games. bye seniors....


SO MUCH MOTHEREFFN HOMEWORK. WHAT AM I DOING ONLINE??!!!
autumn's conerto! so addicting. ugh...another sleepless night. :(