this is the first weekend in a long time where i barely have any hw, feeels hella good(:

i got reallyreally sick on staurday cos of the game friday. it was ridiculous. first hte coldcoldcold weather, then these fuckn chino hills crowd were nothing but white trash. rude and prejudice and ignorant. these bitches can go suck it.

we didnt win, so bballs officially over...kinda sad but cant wait till next year.

so at the game, i spotted a super hot guy, and guess who it was...haha it WOULD be his brother. daYUMMM(:

AUTUMN'S CONCERTO TOTALLY MADE MY DAY TODAY-THE FACT THAT THERES GONNA BE ANOTHER EP! :D OMGOODNESS.
its honestly the best show i've seen in a longlonglong time. its so real and vaness is fuckn hot. like the way he always raise his eyebrows, his body,the way he talks, mmmmmmmm.
maybe im just a drama-addict, but this show teaches so many life lessons. i know its so overrated but todays ep taught me that you cant always jsut sit and wait for that person, if you want love and happiness, you have to go and fight for it, fight for the person you love and fight for your own happiness.

i wish i had that courage and charisma to jsut go up to that person and talk to him. but idk, its never the right time. i guess its just highschool...


i've also realized how deep a mother's love is. i literally cried like half the episode :(



i hate it when i catch myself being so hypocritical. i hate it when i text someone and they never text me back. yet i did the same thing today. on purpose. i hate it when i call someone and they dont answer or call back. yet i did the same thing last night. even if it was at 1am. they would call me every weekend...haha


so i realized, i havent been going out alot lately. thanks jeremy for making me realize how boring i am. but i guess its my choice and honestly, im really just so lazy, i enjoy staying at home, doing nothing but watch movies, eat, and sleep.and i love it when im home alone,its so chill and i like being by myself cos i dont have to impress or look good for anyone or be on guard. i can do whatever i want.

even my moms said i've gained weight...time to workout!!!!!!!


march is coming soon, fuck that means tryouts, and AP. and not long till graduation and byebye seniors :(
im really going to miss all the seniors, i cant imagine being the top dog next year, being the oldest...:/

i reallyreally want next year to be the best. but thats what everyone says and wants. since D$ gonne be gone after 13 years, i really dont know what to expect, its either going to be really good, or really bad. i honestly dont care much if i get captain but i jusst hope that whoever gets it, will be stern with leader like qualities. it going to be hard because we are all bestfriends on the team, but during cheer i think we would need to put personal relationships aside and work together because we are all interdepent on each other.
banquet in two weeks, means tryouts are sooonsooonsooon. fuck CROSSS MY FINGERS AND KNOCK ON WOOD.

there's alot of things i want to do and alot of people i cant to get to know but it seems theres never enough time and fate doesnt allow it.
but then again, im being hypocritical because i think people should go and fight for what they want beucase its only comes around once and if you dont hold on tight, it may never come back.

i guess this is what happens when im locked in my house all weekend long, i tend to think alot and over analyze things.

i really dont want any distractions now, esp now because my mind cant afford it,but then my heart wants something different.