christmas eve.

its freakn freeezinggg...

almost done withe english hw. i should really start on bio. fuckme.

just finished fated to love you today. SUPERCUTE(:
makes me jealous. theres no one out there thats acutally gonna be as perfect.
ethan's pretty cute, cept the small eyes. aha

THANKS ABRRRILLL<3 for giving me advice (; hehe now im not gonna be lonely with nothing to do.
i feel so behind...

im kinda hooked on dramas now, again. but im practising self control cos scool comes first...
but i swear, after ap testing. DRAMA-MARATHON!!!!!! ahhhhhhh :D

i want to watch silence and stained glass cos i never got to finish them but they are both hella sad, and my eyes are already small enough so they dont need to lose any more tears...and i hate crying and being sad :(

i hate it when i end a good drama, it makes me sad. ahah just like when i finish a good boook.
speaking of books, i havent read since like last year. damnn

but every time, they all teach me important lessons about life.

i've always believed in "everything happens for a reason"
i guess everything does happen for a reason, even if it does seem clear why, at first. But when i really think about it, about the desicions i made, the people i met, then things i did, they are all pretty connected. i just wish fate was kinder to me sometimes...

anywho,
it does not feel like christmass at all.
i already told my parents not to get me anything cos they never get what i really want. might as well go shopping myself.
plus, i've been pretty bad this year... shit.

i missss going to school, MINUS classes and hw and test. i misss friends and people ;(
im bored at home. but it feels so chilll, nothing to really do or worry about.
i wish break never ends...

"baby you my everything, you all i ever wanted, we can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it. "


so this school year;s half over, and im screwed.
i tried pretty hard, but im not gonna lie, i didnt try as hard as i should've/could've.

the only good class is apush, but its cos nelson's chill and class is easy.
wait till ap test...ohmyyyyy

im waiting for a fresh start. of everything!

sometimes, i wonder "what if...", more than i should.
and i feel retarded after cos it seems so silly and foolish to daydream of things that never could be.

let's go watch meteor shower.