november

HALLOWEEN
movie night with bestfriend was good and something i needed after weekends of going out.
it was nice jsut chilling with a goodfriend in a cozy house and not doing bad things.
it was good to spend the night eating chips and kettle corn with blankets and bestfriend.
it was funny to watch her scream her head off and dig her nails into my palms as we watch drag me to hell.
AHAHAH(:

so novembers already here, and im LOVN the time change.
but yet my days been so unprouctive, like always.
i tried to study bio. but didnt work out. napped for 4 hours.
felt refreshed.

i really want junior year to be over,
what if i dont get good grades or SAT scores, what if i dont get into a UC college?
i think my parents would disown me.
fuckme. i dont even know what i want to be or do with my life.
theres so much pressure right now.
but yet im sitting here in front of the computer wasting my time.
i miss those days when we were back in elementary or middle school when all we had to worry about was boys and cooties.
and we had weekends off to spend with family and friends and not worrrying about grades and SAT's.
FOL.

i just wish that we can have one night, just one, full of fun. party or kickback, just please a good legit one with legot people and we'll be satisfied.

i hate my hair. i want to chop it off and regrow new ones.

KARMA'S A BITCH. >;(

i need to workout again

i need to study more.

i need to focus.

i need to be nice.

i need to be thankful for what i have.

i need to be cautious.

i need to be confident

i need to be more flexible.

i need to be more carefree.

i need to be more self-controlled.

I NEED TO HAVE MY BRACES OFF.
4 mothereffn years.